| Jul152007 | Personality |
So here I am, lying in bed. It’s humid and for the past few months I’ve cringed at the phrase “Sleepless in Seattle” but that is an apt description of me.
iTunes was just flipped open and I’m planning to fall asleep to Aqualung’s self-titled album. He’s a melodic British voice mixed into restrained, gloomy beats and lyrics about less-than-perfect relationships. It’s not quite break-up music; it’s more “thinking about breaking up” music.
I just listened to an eighteen-minute audio blog; the real-life story of two people finding love. Listening to someone talk openly about going from zero-to-engaged drew a lot of reaction from me. It exposed a lot of my feelings today towards my ideas about relationships. It also made me think a lot about Good Will Hunting because they have that really great line, “I have to see about a girl.”
I hate to see new relationships develop. For whatever number of confusing reasons, I have the greatest trouble meeting people and making these sorts of attachments and this has bred resentment and fear in me. I’m jealous and I’m scared of people’s new relationships.
On the other hand, love is something I believe in. I know, it’s a modern thing to hate on the concept of love but to me there’s no question that great love can and does exist between a couple. When I see two people that genuinely adore each other, all that fear melts away and I have nothing but respect for the bond they share.
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