| Jun122010 | Invitational Jack |
Oh blogoblog, I’ve been afraid to stop by for a variety of reasons. None of them rational. But I did give you a fresh coat of paint, I hope you like it.
I’ve been overdoing the going-out lately. Which is surprising because that is not something I have ever overdone. I’m a hermit, I’m resigned to my quiet little fortress of solitude but somehow I’ve managed to expand this fortress outwards and my world has grown a little bigger. Now I’m out most days of the week.
I had to stop and think about this last night when I went to see a movie with friends and we just kinda sat in silence next to each other and immediately parted ways afterwards. Super lame. I must resolve to stop going out for the sake of being out.
I found I’ve been getting a little pushy lately. I’m not sure yet if this is a good or bad thing but I’m certainly a little more aggressive in some aspects. I tend to pursue people I like hanging out with, maybe get a little clingy. I quickly dismiss people that are too negative or too depressing, mostly because they remind me too much of myself. I’m instigating my own social occasions and inviting people along, I no longer wait to be invited.
Mostly, I think I’m on to a good thing. I’m figuring out how to kick it as a single person living alone. But I need to juggle my priorities a little. I’m still way too hung up on girls. There’s a whole novel I could write on that. There’s this crazy need for me to let a woman run my life, I blame this on my mother.
I need to figure out my work situation. I’m still feeling very unmotivated but I have gained motivation to actually examine this and work it out. It’s a whole lot of navel gazing but I think I’m on the right path. My old co-worker last night said something to the same effect, it is good that I’ve realized I need to change.
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